Looking back this past year I can't say it was all lollipops and rainbows. It has been the most challenging and biggest roller coaster I have been on in my life.I have learned I am stronger then I give myself credit for, I have learned there are heartless people in the world, I have learned to appreciate the little things and I have learned what unconditional love is.
This past year I have learned what scary was. When your baby is a couple days old unable to do anything on his own, When your alone in a NICU family far away, praying nonstop at your babies bedside. Scary is being given this sweet baby who needs good doctors, great therapists, good teachers and your the one going to make that happen.
Being 20 minutes early for appointments, packing weeks in advance for vacation that would be me. However planning for Masons birthday party there wasn't anything punctual or advanced about it. I find myself hesitant just like when I found out Mason could have Down syndrome, I didn't buy anything for him, or his room till the last minute. I wasn't excited about preparing for a baby because I had major doubts there would be a baby.
When I went to the store to purchase Masons first birthday cake an employee asked how he could help me, I got knots in my throat, I slid my sunglasses over my eyes as they filled up with tears and ordered his cake. As I look back this past year I feel more exhilarated, relieved, sad, appreciative and happy. A little sad because this year was full of moving, finding good doctors, therapists,and answers to medical problems and learning. Relived because things could be SO much worse. Appreciative because I have found great doctors, therapist, and a great support system. And happy because I have this beautiful baby who I would do anything for.
I just want to give a shout out to a few people
Lori Beckwith, Krystina Arrowood, Janie Fields, Susan Gyaben, Jen Carter, Alaska FRG, Beth Fry, Tina, Fred and Mary Burns, Karen Burns, Pam Mellinger,Johnny Fields, Katy Goers,my blog followers, Tammy Shivers, Luke Kruger, Marijo, Kathrine Shaw, Renee Wright, Kathy McCalister,Sherri Woodburn, Lacey Holk, Sienna Babcock, last but not least my husband. (probably forgot several and I apologize)
Thank you to all of you have been there in some way...if it was watching Dylan while Mike and I were at the hospital with Mason, A shoulder to cry on,gifts, throwing a baby shower, the phone calls, txts, fb messages to cheer me on and to let me know you care, the people who visited me at the hospital when I was sick, the man who made things easier at work for my soldier, the cards, the letters, or just being a friend to me and my family! THANK YOU!!!!! I appreciate and love all of you! xoxo
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